After nearly a year of typing away in my tiny office, I left the comfortability of that space and those pages, and told my story to a complete stranger whom I knew would relay it all to millions.
Four hours of conversation, stemming from my childhood and band-geek days to my coming-of-age saga and my literary journey, was recorded last night and will soon be shepherded by this writer as an “as told to” piece for a national women’s magazine.
I could have never imagined myself giving my story to another writer to tell on my behalf in my voice. I always thought that my introduction to the world would be my memoir. Yet, I’ve come to realize that I’ve used the process of writing my book as an excuse to continue to hide.
There’s never going to be the perfect moment for the perfect sentence to touch that perfect person at the perfect time in their perfect life. For me, last night was as perfect as it was going to get. And I had to speak freely without fear of judgment or ridicule or ignorance.
Despite being certain and ready, I was still scared. But what I know now, despite the moments of fear and insecurity, is that when you confront uncomfortable situations, you allow room for the most beautiful miracles and abundances in your life.
People are not scary or judgmental or hurtful. At their core, people are kind and caring and gracious and willing to help. The writer, who interviewed me on my living room couch as Aaron eavesdropped from our bedroom, reassured me of the importance and power of my coming out.
Once our intentions were aligned, I was free to let it all out.
From day one, when she approached me through a mutual friend, I knew that my intentions were coming from a place of sharing, of giving my story over to someone else to connect to the humanity in my journey. I’m opening up only with the hope that my story will resonate and more importantly will inspire the reader to go after their own dreams, no matter how crazy or ridiculous they may seem.
I yearn to be an inspiration, an example that good things happen to people who want it bad enough, no matter the circumstances.